i hate that i sit here thinking of you. missing you. us, together. in front of the tv cuddling with a blunt being passed. now my cable is off, because “i don’t pay my bills” it’s cold because you “didn’t” shut my gas off, but you say i stay warm from another man.
you refuse to speak to me like an adult. you refuse to move on. you refuse to leave me alone. i kind of like it. and i hate you. i miss you. i miss us, together.
you’ve mentioned you want me to disappear forever.
and, i shall.
i read this excerpt and instantly thought of you :
I turn all my feelings into hate now, to prevent myself from getting hurt again. I’m pretty sure thats why I don’t like anyone, and why people dont like me. I’m perfectly fine with that. I hate you for destroying me.
and, again, i thank you.
2 Comments
July 9, 2009 at 6:21 pm
“you refuse to leave me alone. i kind of like it.”
i don’t even know where to start.
July 10, 2009 at 2:24 pm
i love the excerpt. thank you.